Thanks for your kind words. I took some homeopathy for the pain - the swelling is starting to go down now so I am feeling ok now, but still feel a bit down.
I think it's because I didn't have H there to hold my hand and normally he would have done, if ever a doctor did anything like that. I just came home feeling very alone.
I'm alright. I have loads of things to be happy about so I don't know why I'm so fragile, really.