Quote: You will beable to use the input for descisions and reflection. Even if you DB, some of the issues may get clearer.
I am concerned if I went on vacation by myself, I might not want to come back as a refreshed H. I just might want to turn around again and do more by myself. It might make BB miss me, but I am not counting on anyone but my self. That is all I have to work with.
I have been at this DB stuff for a year and the resentment between us has cooled, but I still don't feel much closer emotionally. Seems like after one layer of the onion is peeled away and fixed, things look better for a while and then I discover more rot / decomposition to the basic R that I would like to have. It seems some of my trying is not measuring up and I am seeing some things I want are not going to change to what I want.
BB was telling one of her friends "If your H comlains about your dog and wants you (the W) to not have a second dog, get rid of the H. It was not said directly to me, but it still hurt or maybe some true feelings were being restated. That is about the 5th. time I heard it. Who knows?
My plan for now is to junk out the least salable printer items I have, maybe donate one van to the donation store, sell one car, get another car ready to sell, and do more work on the bathroom/bedroom. Some of her shopping spree items are up for grabs too.
