Hi Slowly - Thanks for checking in and the reminder re: expectations. I definitely needed to ground myself as I was soooooooooo looking forward to the date.

Anyway, here's my update. We had a really nice time but I am finding myself impatient at the areas that still haven't come full circle since the bomb time. He's much more quiet and the pda is nill. We over the weekend which was reassuring but he still is somewhat mlc-ish. He used to be sooooooooooo talkative and over the top with pda

All this has made me feel edgy. He also mentioned a sporting event with ff. I just acted like he was talking about anyone and did not make a big deal. So, of course today I check e-mail (seem to do this when anxious) and he saved a response from ff in a folder. It was just a yes to the other sporting event and read totally harmless one liner BUT why would he keep it in a folder like that????

Well, I have to get back to work.

Any ideas besides the obvious of focusing on what I can control

Take Care,
SP

According to the Buddha, praise and blame, gain and loss, pleasure and sorrow may "come and go like the wind," but happiness comes if you can "rest like a great tree in the midst of them all."