Update: Well, I did ask H about the piece of paper but I did it in an appropriate manner that caused no harm
I just asked was there some problem going on at work that he needed to call xxxx at home? He said no it was not xxx's number. An employee did not show up to work so he had to call xxxx's internal work number for the employee's home and cell number to be tracked down. Whew! I do feel better now as my mind tends to go into crazy scenarios. Slowly - you were right!!!
He's also saying he misses more and more and even wanted me to play hooky from work today with him (he works later tonight) but I could not. It's way too busy here. So, I've sent him an e-mail and will call him at lunch so he doesn't feel so disconnected. He even said I should quit my job since we never see each other but that is not something I am planning on doing right now. Maybe once the M is solid and we begin to think about starting a family. I just hope he can sort out his work and other issues so we can move forward on more solid ground
According to the Buddha, praise and blame, gain and loss, pleasure and sorrow may "come and go like the wind," but happiness comes if you can "rest like a great tree in the midst of them all."
