Also, I spoke to my H on my lunch break and he has made plans for himself for tomorrow am. It's an athletic type thing I don't do. I reacted positively but inside I am scared he will meet someone there. That was a pre bomb issue where I would get jealous and want to do everything together. I stopped doing/acting that way but it is hard for me not to worry he will meet someone else who shares the same athletic hobbies.
According to the Buddha, praise and blame, gain and loss, pleasure and sorrow may "come and go like the wind," but happiness comes if you can "rest like a great tree in the midst of them all."
