GEL,

Thought I would come to your thread to let you know I just read your post.
I do not know if congrats for the progress is proper wording considering where you state you are emotionally with your R. So I will state it this way. I am happy for your being able to so well state where you are and what you need to become satisfied within your life. But I am sorry that you are in a place that you feel this way. I wish you continued strength for your journey.