W went to the wedding today. She was lookig in the den for a Wedding card, and was going to give $$. I suggested an Ikebana vase. She hesitated at first, but then decided it was a good idea. I got one for her from an inventory crate, and helped her wrap it while she got ready to go. I think she felt a bit odd giving a gift that I made at a wedding that she told me I couldn't attend.
I managed to steel up a bit this afternoon. I gave W a few more hugs, told her how nice she looked (jeans & t-shirt, but very hot) I helped her carry her clothes for the wedding and tomorrow(staying at SILs) to her car, since her wrist is still really sore. She is wearing the brace, and now her other wrist hurts from overuse. I gave her one more hug before she left, and asked again what I should tell my mom about the birthday. She said that she would go, "It is your birthday after all" I thanked her, gave her a squeeze, put my hand on her cheek, and told her I love her. I have tried to avoid saying it and it has been a long time since I said it in such a direct manner. She was taken aback, and didn't reply. She was upbeat and kind, however, and told me to have a nice time (dinner at friends house).
NOP, as always, thanks for the advice. You know I would have jumped ship a long time ago if it weren't for you. I am glad I stuck it out. Even if things don't go as planned, I feel so much better about myself for the way I have handled things. I now have xrays that prove I am a man o' steel.
Middle day is next Friday. We always used to try to do fun stuff on that day, but I am not holding my breath this year. I will plan a nice evening, and see if she is interested, but I will not crumble if she says no. (Although if she chooses that night to see OM again, I may break a bit around the edges.)
