As usual, the positive vibes from the SSM BB are overwhelmingly comforting. I was feeling down yesterday, mostly due to the fact that I had two hours waiting in the radiology dept before my xray to stew over the gamut of issues that I face, and the fact that W was not by my side.
After some more thought, and time, I feel a lot better. I will not be able to get the MRI, because I have steel in my eyes, just as I expected. Today the Doc put me on hold for 10 minutes, and then bounced me to the answering service, so I am unsure what other options are available.
Last night, W got home at around 10. I was just about to climb into bed. We talked for a while. She was distant, and avoided my contact. We spent a little time together, when I looked up her wrist ailment online to discourage her from putting heat on it (ulnar nerve compression) SIL reccomended heat, to increase blood flow, a practice discouraged by every site we looked at. We went to bed, (separately, as usual) but I couldn't sleep, tossing and turning throughout the night. When I finally fell asleep, the cat saw a visitor on the front porch, and she went nuts, knocking on the windows double time with both front paws. I tossed her into the garage with some snacks and water, and went back to bed.
This morning, I woke W to say goodbye. She offered to go to the test with me, missing a cousins wedding ceremony in the process (she uninvited me from the ceremony when she RSVP'd) I was touched that she cared enough to offer to join me at the hospital.
This morning, BB was at the warehouse when I got there. He left me a circa 1880 brass transit and tripod to sell for his friend. He called me outside with GM and told me his plans for me in the company. He said he would give me a raise to an intermediate level, and asked me to make a proposal for my buying ideas. It was nice to see that he appreciated my contributions, and acknowledged my abilities. I noticed to day that he also gave me overtime for my worked lunches.
IHJ, I need to remember to focus on me, and not my probs. They will sort themselves out as I stay on this track.
GEL, I made it clear to GM yeaterday that I WOULD be looking for another job, and that I had the postal test next week. I think that is why he and BB decided to give me the raise.
NOP, my butt is thouroughly dusted off, and I am on the horse again. Perhaps I used a bit of hyperbole with the prepaid college statement, but W wanted everything accounted for. I agree with HP and GGB that the children would not be very expensive at first. W & I are in agreement that kids get WAYYYYYY to muchh stuff, early on, and grow to expect it. We are both DIY, MIY, or go without people.
LIL, did I sound like I was giving up? I hope not. I will admit that I was beating myself up a bit. I'm working on that list, and it is a long one....
HP, currently, without W's salary, we could not afford to live in this house. Without W's health insurance, we couldn't have children. I can't say that I want kids as badly as W, but I do want them badly. I failed to express that desire in meaningful ways thus far.
I am happy to share my thread, so no hijack noticed. We make calzones and pizza, and never buy it. We often buy the whole wheat pizza dough from the local grocery store (big fancy store, & good dough for less than $2) Other times, W makes it with our bread machine.
GGB, W & I would get along great with you. We feel that spoiled kids are the detriment of our society. Our N&Ns are all spoiled. Each one gets a dozen Christmas presents from Gram & Gramp, plus some from each A & U. Gimme a break, how many plastic crud nuggets does one kid need?
I am back on track. If doc is concerned enough about the possibility of a tumor or other damage, I am certain that there are other ways to diagnose. I am thankful that I avoided an eye explosion! I am pretty sure that there is nothing really wrong with me, so I will keep my positive outlook.
