Quote: My dream of being a full time artist was always secondary in my mind to my desire to be W's husband. I don't know how along the way that I became so blind in my ways, and set on my course. It is truly a mistake that will haunt me for long time. I pray that I do have the chance to show W my true worth.
Dear C,
Your W is beginning to see your worth. Those youthful dreams die hard. I thought I'd get a PhD at one time, but I knew that I had to choose between being a full time student or starting a family. I chose the second route with only an occasional regret. It's not all that I originally wanted, but I wouldn't trade it for the world.
What you are doing, and I think you are realizing this, is creating an alternate universe where you and your wife can live together in peace and have a family. She can't see it yet, she doesn't really believe in it. But your vision of the fuure is beginning to blow away the fog, and she is starting to see a universe she doesn't even believe is possible.
Your faith in your future life might still lead her out of the fog. Keep dreaming. You will make the dream real.
Take care,
SM
"If we will be quiet and ready enough, we shall find compensation in every disappointment." Henry David Thoreau
