HP, As far as our marital goals were concerned, early on we compromised to have one or two kids, if possible. I leaned more toward one, and W wanted two. We never discussed stay at home raising, beyond the goal of both of us staying home and running the business. Since that idea failed, I have made it clear that I will do everything I can to make enough money for her to be a stay at home mom.

I think I am doing a good job at expressing my new understanding of W's sensuality, but it is a tough sell at this point, with the lack of any intimacy.

I haven't scheduled the MRI yet, because the Doc failed to get the insurance approval. I think I will be able to schedule tomorrow for later in the week. If the MRI is good, then I will enter a 6 month wait and see period.

"One more question: How did you come up with your new thread name? Horn o plenty, as in a cornucopia of all your yummy vegetables that are planted..or horns as in the devil horns your W sometimes wears...or Plenty Horny as in your current state of mind...spill it, I want to know."
All of the above

BTW, the beer is tasty, and I am still working on the first keg. I suppose I should have another party. After W freaked out about the first one, I warned her to expect me to have another.

Julie,
I appreciate your kind words. I hope I really am drawing her back. Sometimes I am not so sure. She is still not to be trusted. She is snooping through my stuff regularly, and it is starting to bother me. She seems so two faced at times, and she will lie outright if I confront her about going through my stuff.

I think she knows that I understand her pain, because I have equated it to the pain I feel by her betrayal, only drwan out over years. When she asked how I could forgive her, I told her that I knew how much she was suffering because of me, and I know how suffering can affect judgement. It will take a lot more that a talk to get through this business, but it is a start.

I am mustering up the nerve to ask for a raise tomorrow. The manager is acting a bit jealous of me, and was going to move me to "ebay 2" room, but big boss must have talked him out of it, since he told me not to move this morning. I have not worked there long, but I need the raise, and I know they need me. Wish me luck