All,
Thanks for the support and advice.

NOPkins,
Can we do a phone consultation together? I want us both to continue to C.

IHJ,
Good pick up and thank you for calling me on it. Yes I am somewhat defeatist and it does come through at home to an extent. Something I need to stop if I am going to be the coach right?

Is it ok to keep asking for help here? I just don't feel like I am offering much in return...

ID

PS maybe I should've named the thread "At the beginning"