Wild, That sounds incredibly difficult. If W admitted to me that she was just staying for $ and kids, I would bail asap. Maybe I'M not as committed as I should be right now. I sure tried like hell when the s--- hit the fan. Lately I've just been feeling that I have a lot to offer, a lot of love to give and that I'm tired of feeling sad all the time.
GEL, Thanks! I really like the concept of forgiving someone for something as a choice that can be made right now and forgetting about it over time. I don't know how W would answer to this, but perhaps I will discuss it at our next session. I have mentioned in C that I wouldn't even consider sex with W right now because of the state of things. I don't think she even heard it.
I really do try to be happy around her. She has said that's what she wants to see, but who in the heck is going to be happy about this situation? Even C said I shouldn't feel happy right now. I am trying.
Thanks for all your support. Our next C session in Tues. I work this weekend so not much will happen. I will update next week...
