Oh GEL God help me if I were to say or imply that she wasn't trying. I have been there done that. She always becomes incredibly defensive and tells me that I just expect her to change her feelings overnight and that I am impatient and that I just want sex. She goes on and on. She says that it takes her a very long time to forgive people. I don't really buy or understand this. She is certainly not perfect, and yet I am willing to forgive, forget and move on. Not her. She is a grudge holder.
I do think that her effort in this is about 50% and the C also realizes this. The C has told me that couples with much bigger issues than ours have overcome their odds because both parties really want the relationship to work. C was directly implying that my wife is not fully committed to doing so. Hopefully C will feret this out and make an issue of it in the next month or so. I really think this needs to happen for this to work.
W is definitely making me pay for my past mistakes and has made me feel like this since the whole thing started. It's this attitude along with the flat out rejection that have made me start to feel resentful over the last couple of months.
Thinking back, I have discussed our SR. Back when we first started C. W said she isn't like me and said that women aren't like men! She doesn't do anything alone and says that she doesn't really think about sex. My conclusion is she is LD or ND...
