GEL, It is helpful see that most likely, her reason for not wanting to be with me right now is because of the damage and hurt. For perspective, it wasn't so much time spent apart that got us to where we are, but the way I treated her and made her feel. To me, I was just being me- a little obsessive compulsive. But my behavior really hurt her which I didn't fully understand until we started C. I think that is what really drove her away. I am really working on that now and she admits that I am better.
The thing about her never wanting to be intimate again does bother me. She was never a HD person except for when we first met. I am HD and she is either LD or no drive. Seems like a trend in her family and in mine as well. I think this significantly contributed to getting us to where we are. ie. I am rejected, get angry, and on and on until it becomes very easy to complain about things around the house. She gets hurt, pulls back, rejects me... and so the cycle goes. So a part of me wonders if we may never resolve this because of our sex drive differences. Perhaps the farthest we can get is to understand our differences and be friends not lovers. Where does that leave me except unhappy??
