You found me over at Deb's and I was going to come over here eventually.
I have read your updates, seen your comments about your H's narcissicistic (sp?) personality traits, and concur with you on many levels.
Basically, I have gotten where I am today through prayer (both personal and corporate), studying God's word, and then applying it to my life. I have also been in counseling for over a year.
My H is in a bad way, a really bad way, and I refuse to let him get me down or take me with him.
I still pray for him, but realistically I see that there is NO committment from him to either our marriage or the truth.
Kicking him out of the house last April may not have been the best thing db-wise, but it has brought many things to light that otherwise would have remained hidden in darkness.
I never wanted to D him, but see now that it is the only way.
God hates divorce, but does permit it, and God always always always calls us out of the darkness into the light.
Like I said on Deb's thread, in God's economy I am beachfront property!!
It has taken me a really long to to see that, though. I lost sight of that in the midst of my M, I was too busy trying to be who I thought H wanted me to be.
And of course the whole thing with OW really blew me out of the water for a long time. Wrecked havoc on my self esteem for sure.
And part of my H's whole deal was to always blame me for everything.
But I can't cure his childhood pain, I can't be responsible for his poor choices, and I won't sit here any longer trying to db a train wreck.
and I was going to come over here eventually.
