I've been out of the office and then busy, so am just now getting back. I did pick up some ear plugs at lunch, and that helps a tiny bit.
I don't know if I should stay more backed off or just "let loose" with H....I swear I think, as some have suggested here, I just need a week away from EVERYTHING to hibernate...not sure how on earth I could arrange that though.
I want the hot steamy emails ow gets/got from him....I got one about an hour ago just saying he'd gone for a walk over lunch hour, and reminding me to pick up a furnace filter. darn it....I havent even responded to that one.
I just really don't understand. H has never been the "romantic" type, but he sure is with her. how's come I don't get that????? does that mean he's still connected with her????? will I ever get it????? will he get tired of it?????
I was thinking this afternoon, he said this morning "well you can relax" in reference to my anxiety.
before he left, he made a naughty reference that maybe we'd have a chance for some "heavy duty f-----" this weekend. I was sitting on the bed putting on hose, and I'm sure I looked at him with shock on my face, but I did manage to say "is that a challenge"? to which he replied "yes, if you're up to it"...I told him I liked challenges.
what is it with the sexathon stuff though???????????? I really dont' get it......6 months or a year ago he would throw fits that "its not all about sex" and he was insulted that I thought "it's all about sex"......?????????
So what, now the wife is for sex and the ow is for chores around the house????
I don't know, don't know what to think.
I was thinking of ordering some naughty lingerie from the internet and having it delivered to his office. but maybe that isnt a good idea. be my luck he'd take it to ow. I just do not understand. He does seem eager for sex, told me last weekend or the weekend before that ow "got tired of it, he guessed he couldnt blame her"??????????
Is it possible for him to go from weeping and mourning all night to being so happy in 2 days if he isnt back with her????? the guys nuts and it's getting on my last good nerve.
I did find some interesting "naughty" lingerie on the net, along with videos on erotic dance. maybe I'll order those just for fun if nothing else.
I must have tried to call one of the attorneys this afternoon 2 dozent times and her line was busy the whole time. The woman needs another line. I may go out to my car and try to call again from my cell phone. blehhhhhhhhhhhh, I'm tired of this stuff. I want my H back, unencumbered by ow....
