hi Mollie, thanks. I sure needed to hear from someone. I'm so blown away right now, I cant think straight, again. I wondered if he was saying all that stuff to hurt me, but maybe it was just all the stuff he has pent up with his grief, and he felt close enough to let it out with me. in which case I failed. I guess I should have stopped the conversation. I obviously am not detached from this. I just have a hard time with his vacillation. Sometime in the night he said that sometimes he wants to be there and sometimes he wants to be at our home. He said "we" will be together....but this is driving me nuts. maybe I can go do something tonight, H won't be home till 8 pm or a little after, anyway, so I don't have to see him for a while, although for some sick reason that is always comforting to me.
I need to call the attorneys, but I don't even have privacy here at work to call about an appointment. Maybe I will go home sick and do it. how the hell can things take such an about face so quickly? See, last Thursday was the day his tone changed again, and that was the 1st day after she read the emails on Tuesday that she would speak to him. thats when he pulled back away and started asking me if I was going with him the next day.
Is this part of grieving?????? I really don't know.....
