thanks Ellie...I know, I was taken aback as well by her demanding to see his emails to the person he has been married to for 1/4 of a century!!!!!!!!! I didnt respond other than pretty noncommitally (sp?) to say "huh", and I don't intend to respond. I'm sure he has fed her some poor me stuff, and I know from seeing her correspondence to him that she has worked HARD to plant those seeds in his mind as well.

and for her to demand that he hang by the phone during lunch breaks, etc.????? (I'm inferring that from his email, of course, but I'm betting it's pretty on target). I mean, how can you expect anyone to live their life that way???????

I am going to stop on the way home at bath and body and pick up an aroma therapy oil combo I've liked and not gotten. H likes some of those. hmmmmmmm, there is also a candle scent he likes at a "throw back" (head shop?) cd store here in town. I use lots of candles, but maybe I can run by and grab a couple of those. I picked up "Diamonds and Rust", an old Joan Baez cd, (yes I know we are really old) that he asked for a couple of weeks ago, but I havent given it to him yet. maybe i'll try to put that on before he gets home tonite. hmmmmmmmm

I got a sitter for Friday, so I am going to ride along to the workshop with him, it will give us about 6 hours together, just to chat and listen to music as "friends"...no great expectations, but it will be a change of pace for me (might drive the ow over the edge too, darn)...I'm going to take along a book I've been trying to read...actually a novel for fun...and hang out in the park, I can mozy downtown and snoop through the antique shops and meet h for lunch. If we even have a civil day, which I certainly expect, it will be a nice change of pace and scenery for me.

I havent gotten to Vicky S's yet, intend to...I did stop by a store on the way back from a lunch meeting and got some black capris and a snug hot pink ribbed sweater with a low neck (I'm going for boobs here, H likes em, I've got em, ow doesnt ) I also picked up a couple conservative overblouses I can throw on like a jacket, gonna dig out my fake tanning lotion and get that on....now if I can just lose 30 pounds by Friday. sigh. i'm going for a spicy but classy look, don't want to look like a tramp, but don't want to be boring........

Interesting you should mention "act as if"...I walked around the house last night trying to focus and telling myself "act as if" "act as if"


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