I see my thread locked, I should have started a new one. I'm really hurting right now. will try to post more in a little bit although I'm not sure what to say or what I even think at this point.

Here's the link to my last thread:
http://www.divorcebusting.com/ubbthreads/showflat.php?Cat=&Number=892100&page=0&view=collapsed&sb=5&o=31&fpart=1&vc=1

been around awhile!