I've read through your posts and, like others, can so easily relate to what your experiencing. I too am married to an LD male.
I understand your feelings, anger, sadness, lack of sexual self confidence...and plummeting self-esteem. But there's something you must do....confront him and talk to him about this issue. You must tell him how this is affecting you, how you feel rejected and how that rejection affects you in many aspects of your life. My H never viewed what he was doing as rejection, he truly didn't realize he was rejecting me...that is not until I just bared my soul and told him no-holds-barred how I felt.
Did I miss a posting (or part of one) where you did mention you've told him how you feel? Because if you haven't communicated this to him yet I will tell you this....you will not be able to work through this without communicating clearly with him....it's an absolute must. Communication between the two spouses is often the underlying issue.
I'm sorry to see you here...but as others have said, you aren't alone...so many of us know what you are going through. We're here to support you, give you ideas, give advice...and yes, sometimes to give each other a good swift kick in the pants when we need it Right now what I feel you need is simply a place to start.....talk to him.
Right now what I feel you need is simply a place to start.....talk to him.