So my therapist (and others) say I should tell my bosses what's happening with me, especially since I have a performance review coming up. I'm dreading it but I know I have to say something. I haven't been worth the paper my paycheck is printed on - and not for a while, either. Buried my mother in July and found out H was planning to leave in October - been trying to DB and get through all "this" ever since, all the while hoping and praying that it wouldn't come to this. Well it has. I don't know what to say - I think I just want to tell my 2 bosses and ask them not to tell anyone else in the office - I don't think I can handle the sympathy just yet. On top of my lousy performance and the fact that they were SOOO incredibly supportive last year - I went to be with my mother very suddenly when she got ill and didn't come back for a month as she went through hospital and rehab - did no real work that entire time - and then came back home for a month, totally unproductive, and then she went back in hospital and passed away - I want to ask for time off in order to be with family on the first anniversary of her death at the end of June. So I'm facing a lousy performance evaluation because I NEVER recovered or caught up from last year, I'm going through yet ANOTHER life crisis to tell them about, AND I want time off while being behind - how do I do that? I have to take some time off - I haven't had a vacation needless to say, and while i haven't been productive at all for over a year I haven't relaxed at all - and I'm afraid I'm going to completely crack if I don't take a little time off. I am not used to being this person - I am NOT the crying, nonperformer in the office - I have NEVER done poorly at work and now I'm afraid I'll be put on probation. I don't feel like I can no longer NOT say anything - one of them knows I'm seeing a therapist once a week and I'm pretty sure the other senses something's wrong - I can tell by the way he looks at me. And I think too that I'm a mess because saying "it" means I have to admit it - that my marriage is over. How do I do this? I am an EXTREMELY private person but I feel like I have to say something...I feel like I'm making excuses and on top of that I have NO WAY of saying that I'm going to be doing any better or saying when I wil...
