No worries, JDD. In turn, I apologize for hurting you, regardless of intent. And I'll cut back on my enthusiasm for directives!
Worked out hard today - time is short, as I've lots of work, but it felt good to do so. W is going to the gym the nights I have S5, and is wearing kinda skimpy workout clothes. Down control-monster, Down! I gotta keep remembering that she D'd me. Reality is she does come home, and this is better than her becoming a depressed couch potato.
We small-talked, W seemed tired, I'm tired. She asked me tonight, "How do you do all that?" refering to my work, teaching, etc... I made the mistake of telling her how much I sleep (not much) - a mistake cause I don't want any semblance of complaining to/around her - just positivity for now. A bit of convo about S5.
She mentioned her aching back again, said she was looking into a chiropractor or deep muscle massage (hinting for another spa certificate, perhaps?). She moved away from me, as if afraid that I'd offer to knead her back, so I played indifferent.
She was colder tonight that in the am, but last week said "I'm just tired."
I'm praying and hoping that she'll eventually start stringing some of this tiredness etc... into a big picture of disappointment about where D has gotten her.
I gotta keep remembering that she D'd me. Reality is she does come home, and this is better than her becoming a depressed couch potato.
