Where will you be this time next year? What will have changed? What is likely to have stayed pretty much the same? If you really want to sit down and contemplate such questions, you can come up with some fairly reliable answers. Perhaps you would rather not know. Perhaps you would prefer to be surprised. You are, though, trying to make a delicate decision. You will reach a much wiser conclusion if you really stop and think, this weekend, about what's likely to be important in the future.
Thos are some good words to contemplate, huh? I certainly hope we are in a much more stable M by this time next year. I feel good about how we are now, but there is still some things that I am not getting that I need to have in this M. I'm not sure if I want anything to stay the same...I want thing to continue to get better and better each day! Of course, it only makes things harder thinking about the future. I am not sure if I am ready to do that yet. I still need to focus on each and every day and just take things one day at a time. BECAUSE......
Last night, H and I ML and it was absolutely BEAUTIFUL! Sorry guys...had to brag a little. BUT...afterwards, before I was going to sleep, I leaned over and asked for a goodnight kiss and H didnt do anything. I just pretty much kissed his closed lips. So then I try to go to sleep, but can only think about why he can be so intimate with me during ML, but a simple kiss goodnight he won't give me.
I have been initiating hugs or kisses when H leaves for work in mornings. He has been ok with that...well, at least he leans in for me to kiss his cheek, but I guess thats something, right?
On a more positive note, H and I have had pretty good week. He has been very talkative, and has been thinking of me. He went to get some groceries and brought me back some low-carb candy bars, because he knows I am doing low-carb and LOVE chocolate! I thought that was so sweet of him!!
We are leaving tonight to head back to SD for 10 days! H has decided to come down to my families for the 4th and that is so awesome! He didnt even sound like it was a burden to him the last time he mentioned it! I am excited to go home for that amount of time, will be nice to see old friend and hang with the families!
Hope you all have a Happy 4th, and I will try to check back sometime next week!!
Do not sweat the GN kiss here. Do not let that take away from the huge step that was taken.
You say he has been ok with the kissing at other times. Good sign. It can evolve. It will evolve, do not push the timetable.
Thanks for your post and insights on my thread. You are on the mark I feel. I will update there. It was a stormy night at F4W's and no shelter to hunker down in!
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When we were newcomers and just getting started, we were generally very confused. We welcomed the support. Many of us were fed up with our lives and would have freely turned them in for a different model. But we learned to put into action what we were learning. We are responsible.
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Today, I'll remember my Higher Power has given me free will to accept or reject responsibility. My life is better when I act responsibly.
Of course, it only makes things harder thinking about the future. I am not sure if I am ready to do that yet. I still need to focus on each and every day and just take things one day at a time. BECAUSE......
BUT...afterwards, before I was going to sleep, I leaned over and asked for a goodnight kiss and H didnt do anything. I just pretty much kissed his closed lips. 
So then I try to go to sleep, but can only think about why he can be so intimate with me during ML, but a simple kiss goodnight he won't give me.
