H got home about 7:30 and had picked up supper for us. When he walked in door, I was so happy to see him! He had his hands full, so I couldnt give him a full, frontal hug, so I hugged him from the side and he leaned into me and put his head on my shoulder! It felt so nice! We talked a bit about his trip and then decided to go to bed and watched a movie. It was good nite and when he rolled over to go to sleep, he rolled back over to see if I was going to kiss him...well at least thats what I got out of it. So I did, kiss him on the cheek and said good nite!
Yesterday H didnt work until afternoon, so he just hung out around house. It was just so nice to have him home! At one time, when H was sitting on floor trying to get a game to work, I came up behind him and wrapped my arms around his chest and hugged. He didnt push me away or back away...so there again, it felt good. Last nite in bed, I asked for a kiss good nite after he rolled over and he rolled back, but only far enough so I could kiss him on the cheek, but at least he rolled over, b4 he just wouldnt, but also I was afraid to ask.
Ok, Im sure some of you think I am such a freak...getting all excited bcuz I am giving the affection, instead of H giving it, but the fact that he is accepting it, is a big thing!!
OH, we were talking about this coming weekend, and I asked H if he was playing in softball tourney and he said he wasnt sure yet. He did say that "Brewfest" was in town this weekend though. (Something he went to last year and stayed at his friends the whole weekend. Im not for sure, but think OW, might have been there.) So after he mentioned it, I said, "so are we going to go?" and he said, "I dont know..depends on if I play in tournament."
So, at least no reaction on me asking if I was going and the fact that he brought it up, maybe his intention was of us going together!!
There is one thing on my mind though..its about when we go back to SD for 11 days. Our plan so far is that I go to see my family for 5 days and then go back up to his family's. Well, the 4th falls in there and I would really like to be with H on that day, since last year on that day,he was with OW and I was with my mom and sister. Its only a 2 hr drive and I really want to ask him to come down for that day, just to spend some time with my family, but again, it makes me anxious to ask him. BEFORE the EA and the IMILWY, I would pretty much tell H what I wanted and if he didnt do it, I would guilt him into it. I dont want this time to be like that. I would just like to suggest it, explain my reasons why and then just let him decide. Does that sound good??? If he does really care and sees how much it would mean to me, he would come, right? I know, I should not have any expectations, because then I just get hurt. But I think we are at a place now, where he should be doing things that he knows matter to me.
So I did, kiss him on the cheek and said good nite!
