Well the party went very well!! H was so surprised and didnt have a clue at all! The look on his face was enough for me (even though a thank you would have been nice) to let me know that he appreciated it!! More people showed up than I thought would and it was so nice. Plus no one ended up getting real drunk, so it was a nice, card playing party.

Here is a positive...H got one of his friends fiance's email address so that we can keep in touch. Good sign? I do think so..if he was planning on getting out of my life, I cant see why he would want me to be friends with his friends, right??

Ok. trying not to let this one little thing bother me, because over the past 3 days there have been soooooo many positives, but if I get it off my chest, I will feel better.

When one of our female friends left the party last night, H hugged her..NO, Im not jealous..shes engaged..its not about that, its about how he can hug someone he hardly ever sees, but for me to get a simple hug..there is just no chance. It hurt, but only for a while....