Imagine trying to stay in a theatre after the show is over because you are so keen to know more about the characters and their stories. Or planning a half-time departure from a game because you think you know the final score. There are times when we have to accept that something has run its course. There are times too, when if we stick with a situation, it takes an unexpected turn for the better. Which is it for you now? You'll soon know. Whatever it is, it won't be a problem. You'll be amazed by what's about to become possible.
Wow...so true...when I try to push things or when I try to look forward to the future, thats when I get anxious and afraid. I need to stay focused on the here and now. Its kind of like an "I want, I want" when I look towards the future instead of looking at "Im getting, Im getting" right now.
Yesterday there were times when H seemed a little distant, which of course made me start thinking...H b-day is Sat and last year on his b-day was first weekend H spent with OW, but with bunch of other people. Ugh! Just got pit in my stomach even saying it!! So all day I was wondering if his mood was due to him thinking about that also. Then later on at night, he sat across the room from me instead of sitting on couch with me....again, made me little anxious. Of course it was all me, because I dont really think he was thinking of her. He was busy with work yesterday and has a lot on his mind. But still..I let my stupid self take me to a place I try so hard to forget.
Positives: 1. H cleaned up after supper. 2. H joked around with me in bed. 3. H asked about my workout routine. 4. H let me rub his arm in bed and he had his hand on my leg. 5. H made plans with me to go out to eat on Sat night, then friends called to ask him to go golfing. He then said that maybe after gofling they could go out to eat with us. Which was fine with me..usually he would have changed plans with me and gone out with them alone. (Little does he know the golfing is a plan to get him out of the house because I have surprise b-day party planned for him!)
