Well, I had a wonderful weekend! Saturday, had CPR in the morning (H called and left V mail, but I never returned his call), then went home, mowed the lawn and then sat out in my backyard and read for while until friend showed up. Then we sat and chatted afternoon away.We went for walk and then decided to order Chinese -- YUMMY-- H doenst like Chinese, so I never get chance to eat it! We watched a movie too. Friend left and I read some more and went to bed.

Sunday morning, got all cutied up and went to church, then went to get coffee and paper. While I was in church H had called again but left no message. So, I called him and asked if he was home and what was up. He said he had just got home, so I told him I would be home in little while.

When I got home, I "acted as if", was all happy, smiles, etc. I asked if he had a good time..and cant remember if I got a real response or not. (Maybe his weekend didnt turn out how he wanteed it to or he was wondering why I hadnt called him back and where I was. )He asked if I had gotten his V mail and I said, NO, what time did you call? I said did you want something when you called and he said, "I just..." and stumbled for words. It was like he wanted to say he just called to talk, but was afraid to. Anyways, I said, "you could have called me back" and he said, "well, I said for you to call me, so when you didnt I just figured you were mad". (I had a funny feeling that he might think that because I ALWAYS call him back or answer my phone) I said, "I wasnt mad, just didnt get the message, sorry." Then throughtout the day, he asked what I did friday night and if I had gone for a hike on Sat. I shared little bits of my weekend, but not whole lot.
I then went shopping and bought my self some thong underwear...hee hee and came home and showed H what I had bought. He looked at me strange and I said, "you dont like them?" and he said, "well, yea, but I didnt think you would like them.". I said "well, I thought I would try them." That was fun!! Hee hee!
I went outside to read some more, then came in house and lifted weights for about hour. I had music loud and was dancing and singing...H was a little curious..

I did end up making small supper for the both of us, because he hinted he was hungry..I guess I felt good time to show LL to him. We ate and then I sat and watched TV with him, but NOT on couch with him like I usally do, instead in chair across room. He went to bed early and usually I follow him, but this time, I did not. I waited a while and then went to bed. In bed, I did scratch his arm and he put his hand on my leg (granted it is on top of the covers, but its something). After while he seemed like he was falling asleep, so I said good night.

So today, I woke up feeling pretty darn good! I think most of reason is because I focused on ME all weekend, instead of him. I guess I need to do that more often..like EVERY DAY!!