I was just talking to a friend today and mentioned that right now it is so much harder because I dont know what the problem is with my H. Before when he was in EA, I KNEW what I was up against and had something to "compete" with, but now, I have no idea what is going on inside his head or even what is bothering him. I am not taking it personally, because I KNOW that I have done NOTHING but love the man and do my best to show my love for him. Whatever it is, its something he has to work out himself. I cant help him or even distract him away from whatever it is.
I am going to start coming out with short term goals, for MYSELF, each week. Each day I am going to plan something for ME to either get me out of the house or something that will make me feel good about myself. Its when I was doing this before that H started noticing me more.
I was just thinking about a couple weekends ago, after I had got off the phone with a friend from back home and she told me she is going to go to our "girls weekend", I was so giddy and happy! Well, H noticed and said, "Who were you talking to?" and I told him and asked why and he said, "Well you seem so happy"....hmmmmmm Maybe its time to bring back the mystery a bit???
