My H called me today from California, he wanted to assure me that all of the things he has been saying to me are sincere and that he is not just trying to pacify me. It is so hard to believe him when there are trust issues. BUT if I am to ever have my marriage back, I have to do the three F's. FORGIVE<FORGET<FOREVER. I am a very neurotic person, and it is so hard for me to let go and try again. I want more then anything to rebuild my relationship, and have a new start. I do not want to go back to what we had. I am learning as hard as it is to take things at face value,and not to look into things so much. This is where trust comes in, and this is where I keep failing. If I continue with the same behavior I will lose any hope of rebuilding my relationship.
There can be no testimony without a test. I am praying to go through this test and come out the other end with a new and better marriage then before.
