It is wrong for me to expect you to say certain things to me under the current circumstances. I was happy you told me that you loved me, but I also know that you did not say it because you wanted to. I am sorry you felt you were pressured, but I did give you an out, and that is part of the boundary that you set up for me.Your boundaries make me feel safe. I was not trying to make you feel uncomfortable, but those words from you make me feel so good, and I need to hear them, I want to say them. I am tired of feeling that I can not express my feelings for fear of pissing you off. I love you, I miss you, I find you so attractive and sexy. I miss your smell, your touch, just you. Feelings that I had for you that I thought were dead, are not. I am sorry if you feel uncomfortable, but this is how I feel, this is me. You do not have to feel the same about me, I understand that, I have accepted that. There is no pressure on your part. I love you.
There can be no testimony without a test. I am praying to go through this test and come out the other end with a new and better marriage then before.
