My husbands trust issues with me are very different. I have spent the last 5 months in therapy because there were issues that I have never dealt with, and would have huge anger problems. he told me that he felt that he could never be honest with me for fear of my reaction. I have learned how to control the anger now, and our communication is much better. I know in my heart that there is so much more to the story then he is telling me. In the past i had snooped at some of his emails, and found one he signed "ilove you". When i asked him about it, he said it was just a term of endearment, and I guess I am supposed to believe this. He insists they are best friends, and that is all. I do not believe him. He will be leaving this Wednesday for a 6 day trip to California to see her.He tells me that this is just a mental health vacation, and that they will be in separate rooms, and that there is nothing more then friendship between them. She is recently divorced. I will know by his actions if he is telling the truth. I will see if he calls home, or how his mood is when he finally returns home. I am feeling like such a fool right now. I want so much to believe him, and trust him, but I have no reason to do so.
There can be no testimony without a test. I am praying to go through this test and come out the other end with a new and better marriage then before.
