I have been taking care of myself. I have lost 25 pounds, am wearing make up, and looking good. For years my husband told me I looked frumpy, and didn't take care of my appearance. He has been making comments that i look nice. I must confess I am buying clothes that i know he likes. My oldest daugter drags me to go taning with her, so I do that a couple of times a week. I started my own business, and am busy with that. He has actually been helping me, and he has been awesome in that area. I have a fantastic therapist that i see weekly and I am on anti-anxiety pills, which have been a life saver. For years I suffered with anxiety and panic attacks. I thought it was normal, a few monthhs ago i mentioned these feelings to my therapist and she told me I have anxiety disorder. I have felt to much better, and am not as stressed out anymore, I actually sleep better. My spiritual relationship is better, I feel so much closer to God, and it is helping me to get through each day. Tomorrow we are actually taking all 8 kids out for the day to a butterfly farm. Our first "family" trip in 5 months. I am so excited!! I just hope that the little ones will behave so that my husband won't get stressed and ruin the trip.He is very moody and is "on the edge" right now. I am sure he has alot on his mind and is probably confused about some of his bad choices. He had big plans, he was going to divorce me, and move on with his life, and try and get a job out of state. Now those plans have had to change, and he is stuck , for now any ways.
There can be no testimony without a test. I am praying to go through this test and come out the other end with a new and better marriage then before.
