My kids are 18, 17, 10, 9, 7, 6, 5 and 3. Well, as he lost his job, he decided that he should move back home, for financial reasons, as it was best for the family. We have an apartment attached to our house, so he is living there. I guess I am grateful that he considered the family finances, he didn't have to, he could have continued living where he was, and paying rent. It is hard having him right next door, and knowing that he is living his own life, and i am not allowed to ask questions, or "check up" on him. The good part is that I am keeping busy, the kids and my catering business are a good distraction. He wants us to try and rebuild our relationship as friends.'He is actually making an effort, and even offered to do the laundry for me to help me out. Lately he has been hugging me alot, and has been apologizing when he screws up. We are still not intimate, and he says he still feels like he is walking on eggshells. Maybe this is a good begining, I don't know. I want my husband, not a friend. But I guess we need to start at the very begining, and I suppose this is better then fighting. I do not want my old relationship back, I want a new one. We both have made mistakes, and let out marriage get into a bad rut. He is depressed about his job situation, but I am staying out of the advice business. I am starting to see him more of a person then just as my husband, and believe it or not, the anger and the bad feelings are going away. I really love this man, and I know he is hurting and confused. He has made some bad choices out of total selfishness, and he is going to have to figure things out on his own. At least he hasn't filed any paperwork yet.
There can be no testimony without a test. I am praying to go through this test and come out the other end with a new and better marriage then before.
