Thank you for your support. I guess I now know why I'm in a sex-starved marriage,huh? H prefers the pictures in the printouts, movies, magazines, etc. to a real breathing woman. At 47, I cannot compete with the 18 year olds that he's currently viewing.
His dad (72) is also into this stuff; he has pinups, is always talking about young girls flirting with him, and thinks he's some kind of stud. I don't know how he could have influenced my H since abandoned the family (alcoholic) when H was about 9 and didn't show up again until H was 19. However, one of his first gifts to H was a subscription to Playboy.
The level of porn has escalated from boob pictures to hardcore teen graphic magazines. I just cannot understand why H wanted to go into counseling (his idea), why he made an appt and got Viagra (only used 2) IF he really doesn't want any kind of intimate relationship with me. I was going to get the book (don't know the full title - "He's just not into you"), but I guess I don't really need to do that anymore.
I do love him and would have stood by him if he REALLY wanted to get help for this addiction. He told me that he is seeing one of the counselors we saw as a couple and that I would see it show up on my insurance, but it hasn't. He's lying about that just like he lied about NEVER bringing porn into our house again.
