Annette and Doggielove, My health is a little better. The pain is still there but at least I am no longer taking antibiotics for a phantom 'infection' right.
Thank you for the info on the colonoscopy. My husband will be with me, he took a vac day in order to be with me. I kept telling him that all I needed was someone to watch the kids and drive me home afterwards but he insisted on being there with me. Yeah I'm not looking forward to the "prep" as they so clinically and cleanly call it. That is tomorrow and it is also a day in which I will be on a liquid diet...broth, jello, water, etc. As I wrote on CN's thread, I have a good appetite and get verrrry cranky without sustenance so God help my kids and spouse for the next 2 days, lol! Also I drink a TON of water and am not looking forward to being dehydrated on the day of the procedure. I am also nursing so my body will continue to make milk for the baby and dehydrate me even further. This last surgery was hellish in that I thought I was dying of thirst! I stayed up until midnight the day it happened, just drinking and drinking..
My H continues to work hard at overcoming his urge to push me away. Last night, he pushed me away in a nasty manner and I just walked away with no histrionics. He later came to me and apologized and was VERY attentive for the rest of the night. Since he had been so nice and wonderful for the past week, I found it very easy to forgive and forget. I did ask him how he would feel if I EVER pushed him away like he did to me, and he said "I wouldn't like it at all. "
