H has really been awesome lately; just wanted to brag on him a bit. He has been staying up a little later and voluntarily giving me affection and time. The amazing thing is that this seems to be completely devoid of resentment--he's enjoying himself and feels good about doing this!
He has also been touching me sexually, though there hasn't been any nookie since last weekend. This makes me so happy; I absolutely love sexual touches, even if they don't lead to anything. It lets me know that he is thinking of me in a racy way and not just as the co-parent.
Yesterday when he walked in the door, he did a very blatant up and down stare of me. In that instant, I realized that this is something he does almost every day. Why have I never noticed this before?! Truthfully, I've noticed but I always just thought he was taking us all in..that Happy Husband Returning Home thing. I think because his eyes..they never registered anything other than "I'm so happy to be home!" Not that I was lookin for bedroom eyes, but there was just not a flicker of anything other than your general cheer there. Yesterday I saw a flicker--and boy was it hard to detect--and I was so surprised that I said, Are you lookin at me?! in a flirty and happy voice and he replied, Yes! I always do..
I think my H is a master at keeping a poker face. I think he notices me but will not allow me to see it, or even himself (when he thinks I'm not looking). Any LD input on this one? I should note that I NEVER press for more so an appreciative look would not 'cost' him anything. There are too many children hanging on me at any given moment to steal away for a quickie. He's safe, lol. But he still wants to keep the poker face firmly in place.
Anyway, I have been giving him lots of compliments (per a discussion we had last week in which he said that he loves it when I do this) and trying to let him know how much I appreciate his efforts of this week, without going overboard. A fine line, but I think I'm doing ok.
One thing I need to work on is acting more sexy. Over the years, I've just stopped doing this for a variety of reasons. Some legitimate, some not. I flirt with him but my body language has become so bland.
Earlier this week, I was laying suggestively on our bed (just cause I felt like it) and I heard him coming towards me. I braced myself thinking, If he doesn't notice me I'll be so disappointed. Even as I was having this thought I knew I was setting up an unfair expectation, so I was attempting to HOM before the fact, lol. He came in and instantly noticed me and ran his hands over me, settling on the bits. Verrrry nice. So that was my inspiration that I need to be more blatant. I would be considered pretty darn blatant to an HD guy, but I'm not married to an HD guy so why not tweak my behavior and see what happens. At the least, he will tell me to knock it off (which he has done in the past) and at the best he will like it and respond in kind, as he did the other night.
