Kim, Anna, KDK - Thanks for dropping by and praising me.
Sometimes I doubt if I am doing the right thing. There are still many many questions/uncertainties about H and the OW. But I would quickly bring DR to my mind and ask myself "What would happen if I ask him those questions?" and I would know that it would either make it feel bad, angry or defensive. That normally would be enough for me to want to pursue to know...Just a minute ago, I did have a bad feeling flash pass my mind. Luckily the STOP sign came up in time.
Last night, initially H said he had to entertain some ppl and would be late. But he called about 8.30 pm and said that it has been cancelled and mentioned he would be home soon. Within 15 minutes he was back home. H then took a shower and went out for a quick bite. No funny thoughts from me then because he did come back pretty quick. Nothing much happened. We both read and went to bed.
Tonight, we will be having dinner (be-earliered birthday dinner for H) with some mutual friends at a restaurant...I think some friends were kinda shocked that I am the one organising it. Alot of them expected that I would be giving H the cold shoulder etc etc. We'll see how things go tonight.
