Gosh...Thursday, backslid REAL bad! We argued like crazy. He actually called me names. I was so hurt and angry. I actually told him to catch a flight out of the island the next day. Told him to leave. I was throwing in the towel. I was tired. I don't know anything anymore. I even told him that he could take the boys.....and have his little happy family with the OW. Then, he turned and said "No, I want you and the boys. We can work on us again. I love you!" and he tried to hold my hand. So, I did get some positives from my backsliding episode.
The next morning, boys and I went out for breakfast first, and then H came, put his arm around my waist and said "I really don't know why we were arguing last night. I am already trying to leave the company". The next few days at the resort was quite good. We did stuff like a real family with the exception of some episodes whereby he wanted to be "alone". He'll go off being alone, and then join the boys, and off again. But I guess I can't really complain. He is showing some signs that he is trying to get another job. He's off for another interview tomorrow. What I don't want to get my expectations up, because he may not hold up...
On Thursday, I did tell him that I cried enough on this day, and I will not cry anymore. I will be happy from then on. He did comment on Saturday that I kept to my word, that after 12 midnight Thursday, my mood was like totally different. We laughed and joked for the rest of the trip...(even did a small joke about the OW...) He actually talked to S8 ..."Your mom looks quite sexy doesn't she? Are you going to marry someone sexy like your mom when you grow up?" ( I was walking in front of them...) And S8 ran up to me and said "Mom! I think something wrong with dad. He is talking funny!" I thought that was kinda funny.
