Kim - Thanks for your words...Just gonna take one day at a time...
Journallin...
I have decided to zip up my mouth and throw the key away....This seems to be a better option than trying to say something "nice" or "appropriate". Everything I tried to say something, it always seem to come out wrong. So, this is defintely a better option.
Two nights ago, H did say that he wants to sleep in separate rooms, but when he came back last night, I was already asleep...thought he would sleep in the guest room. But crawled into our bed. Played with my mobile. Programmed my sons' favorite song into my mobile. Now, when I call him, the song will actually be played on my phone. I was like "huh? the boys would then call you on purpose just to hear the song". Didn't really talk much. Told me that he had to travel out of state this weekend, gonna stay with a friend. Again, had nothing to say, so, kept quiet.
This morning..I told him that two of my co-workers went to his company's seminar. He asked "How come they didn't look up for me? How come you didn't come? Thought you would come over to spy on me!". To which I answered "Although the location is my usual lunch hangout, I decided to not go over there...". He was rather amused "Why? Afraid that you will bump into me?" to which I kept quiet.
Said that he would pick the boys up from my mom's and spend the afternoon with them, and said "If I want to spent time with my boys, they would want to too". Again, kept quiet...
Mmm....Hope I don't portray that I have become dumb...
