Some updates on my dodo H. He is still as confused as ever. Still says he wants to move out, and said to me "you won't believe me if I said I will be alone?" to which I replied no, of course. He said he feel like leaving. I said to him that it is really his choice. I really don't care anymore (which I shouldn't have said that, very anti DBing). He said "then, why am I here". He also said "I'm supposed to have broken up". I asked "supposed? means you have not?" He said "trying very hard". I mean what is he trying to do? I really don't understand. I also told him that a normal guy would never tell his wife all those things that he has told me. He kept quiet on that. I almost given up on this guy!!!! I am having so much pressures now to kick this guy out...BUT I won't!!! It will have to be his choice. H is really one confused a@@. He left after our little "discussion". So, I thought he may have left?

Anyway, he came back after I've fallen asleep and jolted me up from bed, and we . Have to say, am a little ashamed of my LOW willpower to hold him off. After that, he went out again. I really don't know where?!! Didn't care. Went to bed.

The next morning, he was up really early. Said he had to attend a convention, and left and he said he will call me to wake me up, which he did.

Oh...and he also said that he won't go with us to our beach holiday with the boys. My old H would never ever let me go to some faraway place by my own with the boys. Am also gonna drive up to some hill resort this weekend by myself. Again, old H would never have allowed that.

I have digressed so much from DBing, that I really have to re-focussed. But this guy is making me go haywire. I really have to compose myself.