Anna - Really needed those encouraging words. Have this really scary thought that he might say that he cannot bear losing her and decides to run back to her. He did say that letting her go is more hurtful then letting the family go. *sigh* I mean, he is still working with her...how can he really get over it? Mourn over the loss if he still sees her, long for her at work?
I know I have no control over his actions, only mine. So, I guessed I really really MUST STOP dwelling on what he will or will not do. In my head, I know what is the right stuff to do, but in my heart, my emotions are in turmoil. But I really must focus on myself and the kids for my sanity's sake.
Fun thing today? Can't think of any at the moment. The boys' have gone off to a little tour to a "money museum" and a "restaurant kitchen". Kinda exciting for them...Unfortunately mommy can't go...got to work. Think really have to start focusing on my work proper. Productivity at work had been almost non-existent. Thank goodness my superior is understanding. Really have to pick myself up and start living my life for myself. I made him go and pay his own bills...I have been doing it for him for I don't know how long. He was surprised that he needed to input so many numbers for just one credit card! I will wait to see how long this goes before he requests for my help.
