Think my R with H is really whacko....here he is still living at home, still initiating s@x, we still talk in a very civil way, still acting like we are a proper family; and at the same time, he is still seeing the OW, and contemplating what to do...to leave her or to leave the family.

Not too sure if I am still DB'ing...he says I am being rather sarcastic. He was letting go one of his staff and felt really bad, and mentioned that he is trying to get the guy another job at a different company to clear his conscience. I said jokingly "well, in that case, perhaps you can find your replacement that will fit the bill as my lover and as the boys' dad!". He was absolutely not happy with my little joke. I do find my little humour gives me great relief.

Anyway, I am still waiting for his decision patiently. No, I have not given him any time frame nor ultimatum. Friends have been saying that perhaps I need to give a time frame. I don't know if a time frame is such a good idea. What do you all think?

Am really really rather numb...