I just had to update on my crazy sitch. Well, things have stabilized and made a turn for the better. I was quite sick last week and my W took care of me very well. She pampered me and frankly spoiled me rotten. We had great R talks and gave lots of ILY. It seems it took mega-drama to bring us to our senses(car crash and FF confrontation). She has shown great remorse for her selfishness and actually said that she was sorry she pushed me away. Never in my lifetime did I think I would hear that. She asked me this weekend if I ever stopped loving her and I said yes. I had because it just hurt too much to continue. She even apologized for causing that! It seems as though I should have fought fire with fire years ago. She has been kind, flattering, compassionate, apologetic, and loving. I can only hope it continues like this. We took our 3S and 4 more boys to the YMCA, McDonalds, a movie, and the arcade Friday night. It was a lot of fun believe it or not and all 7 boys behaved very well. We had a very nice dinner at the club Saturday with good friends and had a great time. Very relaxed, very comfortable.

I don't know where this all leads. I hope the momentum continues and we can make progress individually and together. This all still feels very strange to me. I am enjoying the good times but definitely not taking them for granted. I certainly don't miss the drama but I do think of my FF. It is hard not to wonder how she is doing. Her BF has her "trapped" and she said certain things to me only because he was there(found that out later). There is nothing I can or should do but everyone deserves to be treated better than she gets treated. Oh well, her choice to take it.

Heading home a little early today. My puppies got very sick and have been at the vet for 2 days. They are fine now and I need to pick them up. I will keep everyone posted. TBONE