If it wasn't for being sick I really feel okay mentally today. Let me rephrase that, better than I should feel. I found out in the last week that my W and FF would never be there for me in tough times. That really hurts. The good thing is that the rest of my circle is rock solid, thank goodness. I don't know what the future holds for me but it will be better. My best friend said he wasn't sure if I could keep the wheels on. I said,"Wanna Bet!". So I still haven't lost my spunk. Yeah, it looks as thoough a CPA isn't cut out to GAL the way I was trying to do it. I have disappointed most everyone around me but mostly I can't believe what I have done. Talk about out of charachter! As my good friend said the one good thing about being flat on your back is the only way you can go is up. I just can't believe that I stooped to her level in all of this and thought it was okay for me. Venegence gets us no where.
