Just read through your thread, and just have to say, I feel for you pal.
Don't hit yourself over the head over the way things are going. "Bad" reactions are pretty understandable under the circumstances.
All I can say is that ya just hafta go with the flow. The problem with GAL is that the L you G isn't always what your SO would have for you.
You have to live your life, and wait to see if W wants to join in.
Don't compromize your values, and don't judge your W's values. I think your W is wrestling with what her values really are, and is inadvertently taking you along for the ride.
Bad feelings cause bad reactions and vice versa; both within yourself, and in your R. It’s better to try not to react.
Having said that, I have to admit to feeling krappy, headaches, etc… But I still feel good about myself, and I also know that if I give in to the bad feelings, my marriage is sunk.
Hope you can weather the storm; no matter how it turns out.
