I definitely don't want a D but the M is hurting me a lot lately. Some clients have become aware of my W's activities and are wondering what is wrong with me for putting up with it. Not good for business. Not at all.
I also have two FF friends that have helped me through the last 4 months. We have actually supported each other through a lot lately. Those bonds have become close. After I found out about the last EA/PA I went and met one of the FF. We hit it off in person even better than email or phone. It was an incredible evening that I wouldn't ever give back. Was it right? No, but I don't even feel bad about it. These two FF friends have made me feel cared for, supported, appreciated, etc. My W hasn't done that in years. So I am no longer an innocent bystander in all this. My "friends" are both intelligent, successful, and good mothers. They are quality people that have been through what I am going through. What the future holds, I don't know. What I do know is that I will only accept a great R and I will find it.
My heart and my close friends are all telling me that she won't change. I really wish she would but I have been waiting a long, long time. If I had more strength I could wait longer but I am pretty worn out.
