No, I am trying to get into a discussion. I have decided that the reasons I'm still here, are--
=memories =commitment =duty =insecurity
I have said "I'm living/looking backwards for my happiness, not forward and that hurts. H, what do you want in this marriage? H, what makes you happy here? H, why do you stay here?"
(D's marriage is next month, then the match begins in earnest. Up until now we were just sparring, and I was getting my thoughts in order and struggling to exist sucessfully. Watch out for air born fertilizer shortly!)
Pity me that the heart is slow to learn
What the swift mind beholds at every turn.
Edna St. Vincent Millay