ok, so much for the C I see. CeMar, I feel similarly in that I need "active" love. But at least I'm not letting my self go and working out my frustrations in a socially acceptable way. Also I'm creating a sence of independence from my H that MAY trigger a bit of jealousy and possibly a bit of urgency to have him react to me!
Pity me that the heart is slow to learn
What the swift mind beholds at every turn.
Edna St. Vincent Millay