THanks for all of the positive thoughts. I am taking everything one day at a time. My concern is about cancer, and the blood work showed a low white count (is that good or bad???). It was low at my physical in Feb as well. I am not really afraid, because I don't think that is the problem, but it was a concern that I hoped would dissapear today.

I am feeling pretty good about things. I know that if the MRI is normal, that things are fixable without any real side effects. Doc said that the lack of body fat and cholesterol were more significant factors inhibiting testosterone production than my previous soy intake, but agreed that the phytoestrogens certainly weren't helping matters.

I 'd like to feed the squirrel some bad nuts and send him flapping. (how can W be attracted to him??? We are physical opposites) I can't help but wonder what is going on with the PA. W definitely seems nicer, and she has been coming home for dinner (when she comes home) I know she was really working both of the last two "away" times. The house she is working on is around 7000sf, and has been in the works for many months. It looks like she will be gone ALL of next week, since the house closes on Thursday, and the owner wants to move in on Friday. I offered my assistance over the weekend, but I know she won't take me up on it.

I will keep on keepin' on. I don't have much choice, because I am not the type to turn tail and run. (nowhere to run to anyway)