IHJ, There is a very good version of that song on the DVD.
JJ, I have taken that approach, and have essentially written off our M as kaputt, giving up hope. That has allowed me of late to begin doing things for me. It is still hard to see her, and I still want to save the M, but there is absolutely NOTHING I can do to save it. I will keep on keeping on, and doing what makes me feel whole and happy. I planted a dozen tomatoes, a dozen sweet peppers, a dozen hot peppers, and a dozen basil plants so far. W used to love working in the garden, but she has stayed inside all day while I enjoyed the gardening. I asked her if she wanted some cherry tomatoes, and she said she did, so I left a row open to plant those soon. I love the act of putting those tiny plants into the soil, knowing that the roots will soon be 2-3 feet deep.
Earlier, I asked W to press on my back since it was out of alignment and needed a good crack. She surprised me first by saying she would, and I was even more surprised when she gave me a short massage. It was a bittersweet sensation.
